Chronic Introvert

There was a man who talked to me in my sleep saying he knows what’s in my mind and uttered, “You’ve been meaning to tell her that you’ll look after her even if someone else has her.

— That fucking man was right. 

You can’t lose what you don’t have. Just like her.

I worry worry worry worry worry too much.

Better safe than sorry. True! And you’ll never feel whole again since you left that part of you to that person who left.

— (Lugtu, 2013)

Have you ever had that feeling about someone who you really don’t assume any feelings for anymore but somehow still plays an important role in your life wherein no matter how you try to manage to move on from a previous emotion you once had for that someone, you just keep coming back?

There are some things you have to give up even without giving it a try. Now, I’m giving up on you.

When I’m alone, whether on a day after school or just a random wanderlust, you’d find me in a bookstore, a coffee shop or a cemetery.

Head up, motherfucker. Be proud of what breaks you. You’ve endured lots of frustrations and heartbreaks.

Awkward enough, I realized for the nth time that all I can count on fully anytime is but myself.

I find it hard to trust people. Whenever I do, I feel like I’m leaving a part of me in them. It’s not bad to trust someone, I just feel weird about it.

When you have strong feelings about someone, even the most senseless thing associated to them makes sense to you.